Not dead. I didn't have enough energy to juggle every social media.

I should have posted about it here but I was an idiot and rude to everyone and just kept telling myself I'd pop back in to DW/LJ again in another week when I had the energy. It didn't happen, and I clearly had the energy to post to IG, so that isn't fair to use as an excuse. I'm sorry guys. I hope everyone is doing well!

Is anyone going to San Japan this year? It's in 2 weeks! I finally have all the cosplays I've been working on out of the way. There's still con prep to do but it's minor. It's a major relief tbh. Animefest was really fun though. I have some pics on [instagram.com profile] mudousetsuna and when I have the time I'll put more up there or on my FB. I made a FB after deleting my old one because it was way easier to just dump the photos I took there into a gallery.

Hunter x Hunter - The Last Mission

I GET TO LEAVE WORK EARLY TODAY TO GO SEE IT! AAHHH ;aldfjgh;afjlh I haven't seen this movie yet, and lucked out to find out in time that it's showing locally JUST FOR ONE DAY!!

Seriously, google it if you have a chance, it might be showing near you today. Not sure how long it'll run or if it's just right now. Maybe other cities got luckier, but then Dallas is pretty big...


This is what it takes to drag me up from the depths of mental exhaustion...

I finally got a response and help from the DW community on how to swap usernames. It wasn't working at first, but I think it's because I had the rename tokens on separate accounts, instead of two on the one account I wanted to rename? Anyway after they put a second token on the account I was swapping with, Nope that wasn't it. I checked my emails and they replaced both tokens. Oh well! IT WORKED! This is the username I have been using more often instead of [personal profile] asmaria. That one doesn't really resonate with me anymore.

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I'm so sorry for the silence. I should update, I've just kept telling myself 'Oh, I'll update once I have time to read my friends circle, and then I can go post guilt free. That... wasn't actually working.

So what is up? Work is fucking busy. Ugh. At the end of every day, any plans I had to do anything just fly away. I talked with my roommate and neither one of us are motivated to work on our costumes for Aseliacon, so we're just going to wear the ones we had last year. That's ok. Sometimes this happens. We've been too interested in One Piece. It's too bad it's a Tales con and not generic. OTL

I haven't watched much farther lately, instead we've been writing. I've been /COOKING/. She let me borrow her Sanji cosplay at Taiyoucon and I think that awoke something in me, because after running around acting like a cook, I've started reading the cooking reddit and bought some cook books, and made a bunch of tasty shit (and a few spectacular failures - Collard Greens do not make good wraps, no matter what anyone or their recipes will tell you. Ugh.)

I did make hotpot for one though, because [personal profile] insidious is lame and won't eat it.

I'm trying to find my motivation to do things. All the things I promised. I'm going to get off my ass tonight and draw. I managed to drag my lazy self out of bed even though it was cold this morning, and worked out at the gym, too. No excuses this time.

Back from Arizona... and more meme answers!

I'm so far behind on these questions from the 365 meme! Here's a few!

4) What's the best museum you've ever been to?

I have not been to a lot of them! But I really do like the Dallas Museum of Art! The last time I went they had a bunch of Egyptian things on display and it was really beautiful.

5) Twelfth Night is also known as Epiphany. Have you ever had an epiphany?

Probably... when I realized how much my anxiety has controlled my life? But it was more like an intervention, and my ephiphany was very slow as I learned to recognize and control my own emotions. It's still always a struggle, but I am far more enlightened about my own mind now.

6) What is your favourite keyboard shortcut?

Ctrl + C and Ctrl + V

7) If you were guaranteed that you would be unkillable, indestructible and uninjurable for the next ten years, but you would die once the decade was up, would you go for it?

No. I want to live far longer than that, and if it's my time to go by some freak accident any time sooner, then it's my time to go. :)

8) When you are watching films do you Google the actors to find out if they are still alive and/or what else they have been in?

No, but I do look up voice actors if I recognize their voice!

9) Have you ever been in a canoe?

I haven't! I would probably tip it...

10) Which children's story, song or TV programme do you think is most fundamentally flawed, plot-wise?

Scooby Do? I don't understand how stupid they are...

11) Do you prefer coffee or aeroplanes? If you had to choose to eradicate one of the two from all human history which would go?

What. Why would you ask me this? I guess we'll sail boats and ride trains everywhere, because I'm not giving up my coffee!

12) What subject were you worst at at school?

Math & Science

13) Is there something you once abhorred that you now adore?

Spicy food. The hotter, the better.

14) What is your most impressive party trick?

Disappearing to go home when I hit overwhelmed-o-clock? I'll be excitable as hell for a few hours at any geeky event, then suddenly I want to go chill away from people.

15) Which supposedly attractive film star do you think is a bit ugly?

Benedict Cumberbatch? I think it depends on his role, though.

I just got back from Arizona last night and I'm exhausted. I hope everyone had a great weekend! I will have pictures up at some point. I just got them all off my phone!


I definitely did not keep to my 'update each day' vow... OTL BUT, that's cause I was constantly sewing! I'm on the way to the airport now! Everything is done except the buttons on my Alabasta Nami dress, and I'll finish that in the hotel room. We'll be doing some desert photos this afternoon and I've got a new camera I got for Christmas so I am so pumped OMG! *_*

365 Questions Meme

Took this meme from [personal profile] alwaysbeenasmiler but it comes from [personal profile] jo! https://jo.dreamwidth.org/2345024.html

1) Would you rather relive the last 365 days or lose a year of your life?

I would absolutely relive this last year. It was pretty great, even though I have had some really stressful moments. I had good times with family, and I really finally pushed myself with cosplay to a point I am very proud of. Black Mask, made at my roommate's request, was stressful as fuck, but in the end I learned SO much about knit, bodysuits, top stitching, hand sewing, leather wet molding, painting acrylic leather paint, paint stripping, chemical safety, worbla shaping and patterning, and even messing with fairy lights even though electronics really go over my head. And while I gave up 3 months of evenings for it, we got 1st place and I finally feel like I completed something on time. Without the plethora of tutorials online though, I couldn't have done half of this.

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There was also a lot of personal growth I feel like I had with my closest friendships. I cut off some relationships that I was not happy with and it was a painful decision to make, but I made it all on my own and I'm content with myself at how it turned out even if the final resolution never really went anywhere on the other half. If I had clung to the safety of what I wanted out of it, I would have hurt both myself and my best friend, but I didn't. I'm in a great place now, I chose what I valued most, and to me that's the most important.

AND THEN I GOT INTO ONE PIECE - HOW COULD I CUT THAT OUT OF MY LIFE?! I've cried and laughed so much, they are literally my favorite characters ever!

2) What is your most mundane encounter with a celebrity?

This is difficult. It's not like I meet a ton of celebrities but at cons I've run into various voice actors and would you call that mundane? I've ridden in a Lyft with a guy that did some superhero TV actor gigs for DC I think? He was talking about it because comics came up, but I wasn't too interested, lol... So I followed him on insta for a while but then lost interest.

I think maybe just hanging around way back in the day at an A-kon in like 1999 I was standing next to Tiffany Grant and she was chilling with other fans in an Asuka costume that I believe she said was given to her by another fan. It's so long ago I am sure my memory of it is botched, but it was cool to look back on even if I wasn't even into EVA that I ran into her. The memory really stands out.

3) What's the best advice you've ever received and ignored?

Uh. Probably to start costumes early, don't procrastinate, and go to bed on time...

Or maybe to not dwell on things I can't change. Oops.

About that procrastination, last night I passed out and did not sew. Tonight...

Well I am back, lol

Ironically this shot from the last episode I watched is kind of my mood for vanishing for a near month. December really takes it out of me, and I felt terrible because I've made so many great new friends here! It won't be so bad once I'm not being dragged from one function to the next, and hopefully my job won't be so stressful. Sometimes the only brain power I have left at the end of the day is to write one RP post, then zone out and play cell phone games until bed. What a life. But it has been a fun December. I saw a lot of my family that I don't normally get to see, and got to chat with my cousin about One Piece. He's current on it and was pretty excited I finally started watching it.

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I did make some progress FINALLY getting started on my cosplay for Aseliacon in March. I'm going as Eleanor Hume from Tales of Berseria. This is just the bottom layer of the petticoat, which is more like... an underskirt? I guess since I'm using crepe satin for it, it won't really have much body because it's a heavier fabric, but I like the drape. I've got a hoop skirt it's going to go over. I have no idea what I am doing and am using a lolita tutorial... RIP. We'll see how it turns out. It took me 3 days to psych myself up for this much.

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I'm far more excited for Taiyou Con in AZ coming up in 2 weeks, so of course I decided very last minute that WE SHOULD DO THE ALABASTA COATS! Good job, self! Let's add on more stress? When I owe things to people already? I am not allowing myself to start them until I get out the things I promised though.

To keep myself on track, I'll check back in every day with some progress. How was everyone's Christmas?
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Belated Happy Holidays/Merry Christmas!

Quick update - I'm exhausted and never meant to vanish, but I have so much family stuff going on this week, and work is stressful, and I'm not fully caught up on things I promised to draw for people, but haven't forgotten!! ;_; I'm going to try to get through to Saturday and then catch up on all my friends list reading. But until then, I really have no time.

<3 you guys!


Have you guys seen the rehaul going on over there? I mean it's kinda late for them to finally fix the site up, but I'm impressed that Admin has kept at it once he finally got started.


Do you have a cosplay.com account? I think I'll start using it again, though I've also been using cosplay amino more. Here are my accounts: